真希望能有一夜的好觉。。可能这样我就不会老乱发脾气或老无缘无故的哭了吧。。 真希望所有事能回到重前的简单快乐日子。。。 希望自己能别在胡思乱想了。。
7:23 AM
Indecisive...
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
I have a strong temptation to hide in my own little world and never step back out again. I'm so confused.... Is it due to hormones? Is it due to many other reasons? I don't know.
Sometimes it seems as if i try too hard to please everyone around me. I feel like a clown. Smiling even when i don't feel like it. There are enough things in everyone's lives to worry about, why should they worry about a small fry like me. I feel like crying, I feel like screaming, I feel like throwing a tantrum. But i'm still smiling.
Confidence.. Its something that i can try all my life to gain but would never have. One thing i can praise myself for.. I am a relatively good actor though.. I can seem really confident of what i'm doing. But.. never trust me... I don't even trust myself so don't trust me.
I don't even know what I want. I only know that i'm not happy.. Wishes to enclose myself in my self built walls and never have to put on another smiley faced mask.
8:57 AM
Indecisive...
PROFILE
` Mirabella aka Bella
` 21 years old
` Just started studying..
` Student=)
LOVES
Shopping Chatting puppies sleeping myself... chatting on the MSN playing computer games...
WISHLIST
Laptop Laptop Laptop!!! Bag from Crumpler To be intelligent. still wan a laptop laptop laptop!!! (going crazy) to b rid of my polo tees... hehe have lots of money without working... (think i can slowly dream) smooth skin Jackets