Monday, January 19, 2009
there are certain things in life which we dun haf a say in and yet you wish that you could have been given a chance to do something to change the way the final result is.
I am so sick and tired of the things that had been going on lately... How i wish i could have done something to change everything.. Maybe a life could have been saved.. Maybe tears wouldn't have fallen.. Maybe white hairs would appear so fast.. Maybe maybe maybe...
How many maybes do we have in life which could have been avoided and discarded... I have just allowed something that i would regret for life occur on my watch... I wish i could have at least tried... Although i know that it would be useless but at least i could have tried... I should not have been so cowardly.. I should not have been afraid... I should not have let it happen...
Although i know that clinging onto anithing is wrong... but.. i also know that I should have let anithing go without a fight...
Regrets would cling onto me for life...
1:04 AM
Indecisive...
I am so sick and tired of the things that had been going on lately... How i wish i could have done something to change everything.. Maybe a life could have been saved.. Maybe tears wouldn't have fallen.. Maybe white hairs would appear so fast.. Maybe maybe maybe...
How many maybes do we have in life which could have been avoided and discarded... I have just allowed something that i would regret for life occur on my watch... I wish i could have at least tried... Although i know that it would be useless but at least i could have tried... I should not have been so cowardly.. I should not have been afraid... I should not have let it happen...
Although i know that clinging onto anithing is wrong... but.. i also know that I should have let anithing go without a fight...
Regrets would cling onto me for life...
1:04 AM
Indecisive...
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
m in a veri difficult and sticky position.. sobx.
earlier last year when i was still studying in poly, I decided that after i graduated I do not want to continue on with my studies alreadi... shortly after i graduated, I found a job and verbally promised that i would be working there for quite a few years before i leave the company for greener pastures. However, as the days went by... it slowly began to dawn on me that i NEEDED to study in order to be in a better financial position and to do the things that i want to do. Thus i decided in the quarter of last year that i wanted to enrol in a local private university to continue on with my studies...
BUT... now that it is the start of a new year... i am starting to have doubts regarding my decision... with the presence of a new boss over our heads.. think the doctors were planning to leave after the end of this year. which means if i leave in june.. the purpose of training up new staff jus to work for these few months is veri veri wierd. Moreover... the uniform which was tailor made for us is coming at around the end of jan (if the rumour is true) or it could come later... I would only be wearing it for a few months before i leave the company... How bad can i get... Most importantly... I would be breaking my promise to the company that i would stay there for at least 2 years...
Haiz... I jus told my mum about the possibility of me starting my studies in jan 2010 and she seemed veri angry with me... SOBX..
4:35 AM
Indecisive...
earlier last year when i was still studying in poly, I decided that after i graduated I do not want to continue on with my studies alreadi... shortly after i graduated, I found a job and verbally promised that i would be working there for quite a few years before i leave the company for greener pastures. However, as the days went by... it slowly began to dawn on me that i NEEDED to study in order to be in a better financial position and to do the things that i want to do. Thus i decided in the quarter of last year that i wanted to enrol in a local private university to continue on with my studies...
BUT... now that it is the start of a new year... i am starting to have doubts regarding my decision... with the presence of a new boss over our heads.. think the doctors were planning to leave after the end of this year. which means if i leave in june.. the purpose of training up new staff jus to work for these few months is veri veri wierd. Moreover... the uniform which was tailor made for us is coming at around the end of jan (if the rumour is true) or it could come later... I would only be wearing it for a few months before i leave the company... How bad can i get... Most importantly... I would be breaking my promise to the company that i would stay there for at least 2 years...
Haiz... I jus told my mum about the possibility of me starting my studies in jan 2010 and she seemed veri angry with me... SOBX..
4:35 AM
Indecisive...
Monday, January 05, 2009
Its been 5 days after the crossing over from 2008 into the 2009. Looking back.. 2008 was full of alot of ups and downs. but on the overall.. 2008 was a gr8 year for me.
In the past years.. i have either set impossible resolutions or never ever set ani resolutions. However... this year.. i've grown up le!!! I wanna set resolutions that i can meet and m determined to meet!!!
1) I wanna learn to think before i speak... (Recently a fren told me that after my fight with bee... I have learnt to be polite to her... That fren told me that it was a good thing... and she liked that change in me cos in the past i was realli mean... so that set me thinking and i realised that alot of people had indirectly or directly hinted to me that i was a person with poisonous tongue and I always make people 下不了台 after i speak.) so... I promise that this year i will try to kick alway this bad bad habit of mine... =)
2) I need to learn how to start being thrifty again... i realised that after i started working... My original spendthrift ways haf disappeared into thin air and i m a terrible spender... Now i m constantly taking taxis around Singapore... (sobx)
3) i need to learn to be on time again... I haf learnt this bad habit of being late for my appointments now.. I promise to learn to be on time...
Resolute to accomplishing my resolutions!!!!! *.*
4:34 AM
Indecisive...
In the past years.. i have either set impossible resolutions or never ever set ani resolutions. However... this year.. i've grown up le!!! I wanna set resolutions that i can meet and m determined to meet!!!
1) I wanna learn to think before i speak... (Recently a fren told me that after my fight with bee... I have learnt to be polite to her... That fren told me that it was a good thing... and she liked that change in me cos in the past i was realli mean... so that set me thinking and i realised that alot of people had indirectly or directly hinted to me that i was a person with poisonous tongue and I always make people 下不了台 after i speak.) so... I promise that this year i will try to kick alway this bad bad habit of mine... =)
2) I need to learn how to start being thrifty again... i realised that after i started working... My original spendthrift ways haf disappeared into thin air and i m a terrible spender... Now i m constantly taking taxis around Singapore... (sobx)
3) i need to learn to be on time again... I haf learnt this bad habit of being late for my appointments now.. I promise to learn to be on time...
Resolute to accomplishing my resolutions!!!!! *.*
4:34 AM
Indecisive...
